come home running

chris tomlin - come home running

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

my friend, jazreel, introduced this song to me. 

dear friends, if youre looking for comfort. Jesus wants you to come back to Him. 

come just as you are. 

He's waiting for you. He knows what you're going through. (: 

everlasting God. never changing God.

Everlasting God by Ross Parsley

one thing i know that i have found.. through all the troubles that surrounds.. 

You are the rock that never fails.. You never fail.. 

one thing i know that i believe, through every blessing ive received..

You are the only one that stays.. You always stay

You never change.. 

Youre the same.. 

You are the everlasting God 

You will remain after the day is gone and things above have past.. 

everlasting God. 

this song really touched me because when things dont go right in my life, i still know that God will never change and God is faithful to His promises (psalm 145)

whatever He has promised me before, it will never change, just because things dont look pretty.

i realized that yes, i can depend on my friends for comfort and encouragement. but God is the only one that will stay behind and look after me.

God: My daughter, everything will be fine. 

Young Cheryl: yes, Daddy. i believe. 

God. i will always believe in You. 

sad yet still trusting

today, as i was going to do my module enrolment. in the morning (during games day) i was depressed because i thought i could not be in the same class as my clique because they chose FIT (financial international trade) and i chose IEF (international economic and finance) last time. 

but another of my friend told me that the previous selections of IEF and FIT did not matter and now we can reselect again. i was filled with joy. hence i decided that i would forgo my passion, which is economics, and go ahead to join my clique. 

to my dismay, when it was time to enrol into the classes, my computer jammed. i could not get into the class (TB09) my clique was intending to go. everyone of them got in except for me. as it was still jamming for 10 mins, i was tearing and shouting, "God God why did you let this happen to me!" 

TB09 (FIT class) was filled and i just chose TB01 (IEF class). my friend, taby, told me, maybe God wants you to get out of your comfort zone. and i thought, okay, maybe she's right. 

i burst into tears when i finally realized that i could not be in the same class as my clique. i was going to be all alone. 

but God reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11 i believe God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. it is going to be difficult to go through the next semester all by myself. but im going to trust in God's plans. 

Romans 8:28, i love God, i believe everything He has done is good.

hallelujah, Jesus. 

my exam results [:

the first sentence: ALL GLORY TO GOD. 

Thanks be to God, who always causes me to triumph and overcome (:

the day before yesterday, i was praying fervently for my results. God's peace was poured unto me. i felt calm and knowing that i would do well. it wasn't the confidence of my own abilities, for God said take no confidence from the flesh.

in the modules where i scored distinctions, BMGT and MAEC, they were hardly the modules i expected an A grade. 

in BMGT module, i didnt attend the lectures nor did i pay attention during the tutorials. (i tried, but it was too boring) plus, i only had 4 hours to study for the BMGT paper. i was so scared because i did not want to get below a B grade. i cried out to God to help me and i went to bed after studying. i believed that God will enable me to do well. during the paper itself, i could really sense that it was not by my strength that enabled me to do this paper but it was by the Holy Spirit that was teaching and guiding me.

God has heard and answered my desperate cries. (:

in MAEC module, the paper was incredibly difficult, it was the most difficult paper set in the past 3 years. and i thought, "oh great. there goes my A grade." but i prayed to God and submitted all my worries to God. i never expected an AD, but God knew how much i loved economics and i believe He blessed me. 

in DSS module, i didn't understand anything at all. i did not do my tutorials, i had attempt, but i didn't know how to do any of them. a few days before the project submission, i suddenly understood the concepts. and a day before the project submission, my group realized that we did not do 60% of the project and we had to rush through it. and amazingly, my teacher praised my group, telling us "your project is one of the best in the cohort." thanks to God. (: we also had a major exam on a monday. the day before (which is sunday) was the day for the preparation of exam. initially i didn't want to go for the first SP class, but i chose to because this verse struck me hard. "keep the Sabbath day holy. don't pursue your own interests on that day..." (isa 58:13) i was thinking, oh crap, fine. i will go for the SP class then come back to study for the exam. 

but God did bless me, because suddenly, i knew how to do all the tutorials. even the challenging ones. it really amazed me how God had changed an IT idiot into an IT genius on that day of the exam. 

initially, i was setting my expectations for my grades.

MAEC: A, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: B+, LMS: C, IAC: A, DSS: B. 

GPA: 3.58

as i was looking at it, i was like.. aiyo, seems so impossible. tsk. 

but what i got for the results.

MAEC: AD, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: AD, LMS: C+, IAC: A, DSS: A.

GPA: 3.875

my God is a God of possibilities. there's nothing impossible for Him. He has given more than what i had expected.

could i have done it myself?

i think not.

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

(cheryl with the c)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_enkl4jCzMM

one of my cell group friends shared this video with the cell. as i begin to watch it, i started to cry. i realized that the devil's plans were so evident in this world. 

there's always a question that i ask God, why does evil seem to overpower the good? 

as you begin to watch this video, its about how the devil use busyness and the lack of love to create chaos in peoples' lives.

i've told someone before, that i may quit rotaract club and lose my position if i find myself losing my interaction time with God. people may argue that, why? aren't your cca points more important for your university admission? 

in the past, i used to always think about getting a high GPA and great CCA leadership position. but chasing after all those worldly status and recognition made me feel immensely tired. i asked myself, "so what if i attain these? why am i trying to gain my self-worth through these?" 

i'm not saying don't do well in your studies, don't do well in your CCA. yes, do well in them but don't put your focus on them because it will only make you very exasperated.

reflect through this word, BUSY.

B - eing

U- nder

S - atan's

Y - oke

i don't want to meet God and hear Him say, "you've been busy, you've been under the devil's yoke." but instead, i want to hear Him say, "well done, my good and faithful servant."

now that sentence gives me comfort and cheer. [:

MISS SWAN [:

hey!! you guys have any time to relax before the examinations. watch miss swan!! (: it makes me LAUGHHHH. 

this is my favourite! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZ9lb319uZQ (miss swan at the candy shop)

watch the miss swan at atm as well! HAHAHA!! do..doo..dooo..GOO!!

watch the miss swan at customs!! HAHAHAHA!! HOKEY POKEY DANCE! :D

OH YESS!! WATCH THE ONE WHERE MISS SWAN is at the airplane :D

OH!! THE MOVIE THEATRE ONE! HAHAHAHA. oh my goodness watch all of them (:

HE LOOKING LIKE A MAN!

OKAY, ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS!

THANKS TO YOU! :D

Savior King moves my mountains.

apologies to friends who don't feel comfortable tagging because most of my posts are about my faith in God. 

haha, but don't worry. i will still tag your blogs because i care for you guys. 

this comment is especially for my dear zhiying. (:

from the start of this year, it was periods of conquest. i would feel strong to overcome my obstacles. but somehow, the devil would remind me of how i have failed. i was down and disappointed with myself, convinced that i was unworthy of God's love. there was no desire to seek after God, i deliberated walking away from God.

but there's this hillsong album called the "i heart revolution." it was really touching when you hear the different nations sing and praise the same God. people who are living in countries that lack their daily necessities could still shout for God. when you hear the people's desire to worship in spirit and in truth, there's no way to describe that feeling. 

and i want to be part of this generation that stands for God.

this is one of the album songs that really got me dancing (:

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What The World Will Never Take

With all I'm holding inside
With all my hopes and desires
And all the dreams that I've dreamt

With all I'm hoping to be
And all that the world will bring
And all that fails to compare

You say You want all of me
I wouldnt have it any other way

I've got a Saviour and He's living in me
WHOA

I wana know
I wana know You today

And You're the best thing that has happened to me
And the world will never take
The world will never take You away

No-one could ever take You away

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my God still deserves all the praises despite my circumstances. (:

although my sins are red like scarlet, He cleanses me so that they can be as pure as snow. 

my one desire: to fall in love with my Saviour. 

HALLELUJAH! 

I SHALL OVERCOME ALL OBSTACLES. 

becausee... my God is mighty to save. He can move my mountains. 

i'm in ngee ann to fulfill God's destiny for me [:

Yesterday, as I was brushing my teeth, God painted a picture for me, He asked me to imagine a poor man that is very hungry. He finds God and receives salvation. His walk with God is strong, but all of a sudden, he receives a job and gets a high positioning managerial post. Instead of going to church on Sundays, he chooses to work in his office to get extra pay.

God reverts the attention back to Him and asked me, this man has 2 choices, he could’ve chosen to walk away and say “when I was thirsty, God took away my thirst. When I was hungry, God fed me. When I was poor, God made me rich. This world has nothing to offer to me.” Or he could have chosen to walk towards the rewards of this world, leaving God behind.

In such a time as this, the right thing to do is to the first. But so often, we choose the latter.

I was increasingly tired as my every days was filled with CCA, church and project meetings. I came home at 10pm every day and used the little strength that I had left to do Time Alone With God (TAWG) So often, instead of praising Him, I would come home complaining about how tired I was.

But Pastor Andy said this last 2 weeks, “Give your time to church rather than to give your time to the world.”

I was immediately awakened; God placed this sentence in my heart, “I’m in Ngee Ann to fulfill God’s destiny for me.” (:

It’s not about me but about God. I’m not going to leave cell or church. Because I know what’s best for me.

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

[:

my computer works things out pretty slowly. it's not as if my modem is substandard. it has to be my computer. *brawls. 

yesterday, i met up with zhiying. she's hilarious. we were at vivocity, when she suddenly spotted a nice looking tank top in a shop. without deliberating, she went in. as i was going to stop her because the shop's name was SPRING MATERNITY? she sensed there was something wrong as the left side of the shop was filled with prams. she turned 180 degrees before screaming (in the middle of nowhere) OH MY GOSH. IT'S A MATERNITY WEAR SHOP. i could've died of laughter. she was mortified and embarrassed. [: 

that's why i love you, zhiying! you're so funny (:

zhiying and i love sundresses, but unfortunately, there weren't many pretty ones. we went into a shop (i shan't name it, lest something happens) and the people there were seriously arrogant? as i was dressed in a cartoon shirt and zhiying in shorts, the people there thought we were shabbily dressed, hence we weren't able to pay for their clothes. they talked to us in a condescending manner. phish.. but i shall not be mad because zhiying is delirious about her two new shorts from outfitters! (: and i'm elated about my new sundress. 

it's new year eve! [: as we're entering 2009, paranoia sweeps through me. how well will i do for this and the next semester? but this year will be comparatively worse for those j2 students. you guys can do it! (: i believe in you!

a gentle reminder: WEAR DRESSES FOR MY BIRTHDAY, OKAY? (JAZREEL, AUDRIE, ANGELA) 

i will be going to the airport later to spend the first day of 2009. :D woohoo!

cheezelmomeezel, cereal

O.o

HELLO!!

Ah ha, yesterday, my mom was feeling really down, so I decided to treat her to breakfast! I really wanted to eat waffles or pancakes. But Miss Clarity Cafe, Cheeky Chocolate, etc weren't open :/ Ack. She loves Ya Kun toasts, so there's where we ate. [:

Wha, this entire week is going to be busyy. I have to prepare two of my friends' birthdays. I mean, it's a joy to prepare such occasions BUT during your tests?!! Ack. But I'm pulling through. XD

I'm really missing my SC friends. SIGHH. Oh yes, I must remember to invite them to the Christmas Evangelistic Event!! 

For those who read my blog: it's on the 27th december, 5.30pm - 9pm. It will be held at Brandon's house (xinyan, yvonne and zhiying should know him XD ) which is near Bishan. (: Maybe we can meet up and chill first before going for the party? (:

LALALALA. 

I came up with this creative innovation, whilst talking to my dearest sister. I love Spongebob, Patrick and HONEY STARS, hence Spongebob is HONEY and Patrick is the STAR! [: Okay, LAMEEE. I know.  

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

my cousin's wedding [:

Woo! I went for my cousin’s wedding yesterday. I was supposed to do the reception!! But my wonderful, beautiful mother was late. Hence, I helped out at the ushering corner instead. ]: anyways, the point isn’t about the ushering or reception. It’s about the amazing wedding!  It is such a joyous occasion watching people getting married!! My sister and i were discussing how we wanted to get married. HAHA. But it’s like 10 years down the road? No point thinking about it now right? All my close friends and myself haven’t found ourselves a boyfriend yet!! But i believe we will find ourselves one one day!!! HAHAHA. I definitely do believe that God has planned that certain someone for me. [: YOOHOO! Where are you? [:

OH GOSH. AHAHAH. I sound desperate here. *coughs.

I had a lot of fun in the wedding! A lot of people couldn’t recognize me. :/ Isn’t it weird? I saw them in February, they can recognize my sister but not me. The previous Chinese New Year, i was sitting beside the cousin who just got married, and people thought i was his girlfriend?! O.o I’m their relative not their relative’s girlfriend!!

Oh well, :D here are some photos. There are more on the photobucket! LOVEEEE!!

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

  

busy week. but surprisingly, i have the time to post. HURR.

hello!! [: i had a test today, i wasn't very strong in that topic either. ): anyways, i was telling God i needed a blessing. because i only got 35/50 for the previous test, major disappointment. i needed to get like 45/50 for this test, in order for me to get an A. :/ sounds like an impossible mission. there was this question (a) in the test which leads up to another part b question which costs 15marks. if your answer was wrong for the particular question (a), you would lose 15 marks. surprisingly, my answer for part (a) is right(checked with the teacher) so hopefully my 15 marks will still be intact. HAHA !! [: i'm so frigging happy. 

ALSO, i had another blessing from God. initially, i didn't have the mooleh to pay for my church camp. but in 1 week, i managed to raise $183 through my bakery business! isn't it amazing?

my God provides. 

christmas day!

Oh my goodness! I'm loving the feel of christmas! 

5 days i love about christmas:

1. Christmas Songs

2. The Log Cake

3. The Gatherings with Friends and Family

4. Christmas Services Provided by the Church

5: The fact that Jesus was Born on This Very Day. Because He Died for My sins. Thank You Jesus for Christmas Day!!

I used to love Christmas, simply just for the gifts. The feel of ripping apart the christmas wrappers and revealing the gifts that are hidden behind the wrappers. 

But there's so much more to it! I can't wait to gather with my friends to have christmas dinners and brunches. 

I remember when I was young, my family bought this log cake. It resembles a log and it had a smiley face on it. I felt so sad when I had to cut it. But eventually, I did. [: Also, I would always do the arrangements for the Christmas tree. But this year, the Christmas tree was thrown away. ): Maybe we shall buy another.. Maybe a white Christmas tree xD

Summary of this post: I LOVE CHRISTMAS. 

P.S: Although there's recession, look on the bright side, also every store in Singapore is having a sale. HURR. 

woolooloo

HAHAHA. Oh my goodness. [: Today, I went through a swing of emotions! But I'm super glad I'm able to snap out of it and there were people who were amazed at how high I was. At a certain point, my happiness was a pretence. But after I went for cell.. After admitting some stuff to Antoinette,  I broke the barrier. It was amazing how that barrier made me so angry and disappointed. Like what taby said, "it's better to tell them, otherwise the devil can use it as a snare against you."

I'M GLAD I HAVE MY CELL MEMBERS. [:

Oh Lord, day by day, I'm facing persecution beyond what I had expected. But, by the weeks, I seemed to have realize that Your joy is indeed my strength. 

Cheezelmomeezel, 

Cereal 

killing weather

Whoa. Singapore is undergoing a serious form of global warming. No wonder the girls in Singapore are able to create excuses to wear 15cm-20cm shorts and shirts that resemble a piece of cloth. Tsk!

 

Did you guys read about MDIS new stringent rules about the students’ hair and clothings? Check this out: this girl claims she has no mooleh to dye her hair so she had to dye it golden brown. -.- no mooleh then don’t dye it, honey.

 

I love macroeconomics but its giving me headaches. ARGH. It’s a hundred times more difficult than microeconomics. But heck it, I’M STILL GOING TO PURSUE MY INTEREST. (which is economics, of course) For the sake of my interest, I decided to leave the comfort zone and my clique. (because they have chosen F.I.T instead of I.E.F)

 

SIGHH. But my God will provide a way, yes yes?

 

I’m incredibly excited about my water baptism! [:  Just by wondering about God’s plans makes me high and full of energy. [:

 

GUESS WHAT, KIDS. I’m able to play 4 chords on the guitar. Improvement? I guess so. HMMM..

 

I’m missing my sc friends so badly. But holidays are nearing..in like what, 1 month’s time? Hurr hurr. Patience is a virtue.

 

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal.

my wonderful weekend

Hey you guys (my close friends whom i allow to read my blog) I'm fine now. I'm a little too busy to think about the problems. Instead of focusing on the problem, i will focus on the person. [: So don't worry. I'm still a cheerful cereal box

Woo! I’m terribly exhausted now.. But I shall summarise my last weekend. [:

Saturday, I met Brother Andrew, Edwin, Brandon and Eugene for a run around church. I’ve never ran such distance or at such speed in my entire life. But it was extremely fun to push myself to such limits that I never dared to venture before. After running, we ate at Adam road hawker centre, Edwin was going crazy over my green chilli and I had to make 3 runs to the stall to refill the green chilli. Do I look like some Fatima to Edwin?! I’m brothers with Brandon now. -.- Brother Cereal.

Oh yes! I just realized that Edwin likes Post Select Blueberry Cereal too! Oh my goodness, it’s my no. 1 favourite cereal, no. 2: honey stars, no. 3: Oreo Os, no. 4: waffle crisps, no. 5: frosties!!

I’ve never tried cocopops before. –mental note for ant: I shall try it one day [:

Sunday, I went to church, I woke up really late so I didn’t make it in time for prayer task force. (I got a big scolding from Brother Andrew! I shall force open my eyelids at 6.20am on Sundays.) Church service was great [: Pastor Gary’s sense of humour really improved, compared to the time when I was still a secondary 2 student. We took photos and a video of our cell for tab koh. :D we went to eat at Adam food hawker centre (again) I sinfully chomped down fried oysters and Indian style chicken chop. Ant, Brandon, Brother Andrew and I went to Gi Thiong’s house. Ant and I went to walk around in the pool, not long after, it started pouring!! But we had a fun time in the pool. :D if only I could swim.. when the time is right, I shall learn. I taught Gi Thiong how to bake chocolate chip cookies. He did a great job as a first timer. [:

Woo! I spent so much time with my cell members, I totally neglected my tutorial work. Argh.

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

i love my sc friends

HAHAHAHA. oh my goodness. firstly, i want to thank my bangala for being so concern about my previous post! but seriously, im kinda tight lipped about my family issues unless its absolutely necessary to tell. (necessary means im suffering from a mild breakdown and it requires me to tell someone. if i dont, i will probably go insane and depressed.) BANGALA! i love you honey. (: we're always talking about our infatuations and how it will NEVER work out. apparently, we aint guys' type. HAHAHA. but whateverrr. as long as i have my God and my friends to be with me forever. [:

secondly, i love yvonne and zhiying. oh my goodness. they made my day today with a hilarious msn conversation. (: yvonne and i want to play tennis tomorrow and then zhiying said she doesn't exercise outside because she doesn't see the point of doing so. she can run at home, how? she runs on the spot. HAHAHAA. its amazing how zhiying is so skinny without exercising.

lastly, i want to thank God for being there for me. yesterday, i cried while i was bathing. the emotional pain was unbearable and i broke down. i felt so tired with everything. i was thinking about why God wanted me to suffer through so many situations, wondering where God is right now. are my tears worth anything in God's eyes? after i finish bathing, i got back my strength and pulled out the bible and recorded down verses where suffering of Christians is for the will of God. But Jesus Christ will perfect, establish, strengthen and settle me after my sufferings. (: initially while i was crying, i wondered how i did not have to live on bread alone but on God's word. But i surprised myself by doing so. AMEN. 

CEREAL WILL ALWAYS BE STRONG, RIGHT BANGALA? don't worry. i wont be sad for long. i will always get back my energy and strength to be that lame and happy cereal girl. HAHA.

argh. hmm.. har? HA!

This week has been one of the most frustrating weeks for me. I’ve went through a series of emotions. From feeling angry to sad to anxious to happy then back to angry. The silent cries and pleas during my prayers made me feel small in God’s eyes. I’ve been thinking, maybe he doesn’t care about my prayers or is it because I’ve done something wrong? Nope, no replies.

But a week later, the answers started to come in gradually. The answers were not what I want to hear but this situation will let me increase in my faith and trust in God.

Actually, this month is a crucial month for me; as my water baptism is coming up. Suddenly, this series of events struck me with disappointment and anger. But I've decided to run in this race with endurance, looking unto my Saviour, the author and finisher of faith.

After all, “faith is a substance of things hoped for, evidence of things not seen.” (heb 11:1)

 

Salvation is here

God above all the world in motion,

God above all my hopes and fears,

Well I don't care what the world throws at me now,

It's gonna be alright! 

Cause I know my God saved the day,

And I know His word never fails,

And I know my God made a way for me,

Salvation is here.

 

How can I keep from singing Your praise?

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels

And the saints around the throne 

P.S: when i started writing this post, it was raining heavily and the thunders were literally making me jump up from my seat. After i finished, the rain settled for a drizzle. [: 

HUAT AH!

woo!! ive decided to revive this blog of mine. cheezelmomeezel! (:

oh gosh. im so tired. i had a no school today so i woke up at twelve-ish and rushed to ntuc finest to get some baking materials. i baked white chocolate cookies and chunky chocolate muffins. (: (p.s: ive reserved some cookies for huishan, yeeling and limin)

im super proud of myself! ive finally found my passion. (: bakinggg and maybe the piano. i remember brandon asking what my passion was, and i had no idea? ): i felt disappointed with myself, i'm nearing eighteen and i dont have a passion (besides my passion for God and His kingdom) ha! im still trying to learn the guitar and piano. i will find my musical talent someday.

hopefully, when i have cell on deepavali, i will bake chocolate mallow pie (chocolate pie with melted marshmallows cream) for them. hurr hurr.

oh my goodness, halloween is nearing! ntuc is finally selling reese peanut butter cups (no. 2 favourite chocolate) my favourite chocolate is kinder bueno (: lovess. 

ahhh, i miss zhiying, xinyan and yvonne so badly. i saw huifang (hweefang), jazreel, janet, shuying and angela during the scgs open house. oh gosh. there were so many fond memories. HAHAHA. all of us couldnt stop laughing when jazreel and i recalled that xinyan farted during the amath remedial while she was trying to get up to go to the toilet. OH MY GOODNESS.. XINYAN IS THE FUNNIEST SHITTE EVER. (: love you, girl. 

i really miss the sc memories and the sc spirit that all of us have inside of us. the ncos 08-09 did a great show for open house (: the part bs-going part cs did a great presentation with the rifles. they surprised me when they were able to handle the rifles well and stamp as one. (: i cant wait for annual camp 09. WOO!!

woo! im going for my water baptism soon. wish me luckk. 

cheezelmomeezel. God bless you all (: