Banana Walnut Teacake

Woohoo! Today, my mother asked me to bake a cake for her cell group! I was really happy to do it for her, since baking is my passion!

I seriously believe in http://community.livejournal.com/bakebakebake/ for all my recipes! (:

I decided to bake banana walnut tea cake since my family had 8 bananas at home. In case you didn't know, my family are banana fans. Every week, we will always buy 2 clusters of bananas home.

Bananas are great. by the way. Bananas are rich in vitamin B6 and they are a good source of fiber, vitamin C, magnesium and potassium. Bananas also contain plenty of carbohydrates which are the body's main source of energy.

Bananas can be used to blend with low fat yogurt to make healthy smoothies. Due to its thick texture, the smoothie will taste really excellent. Bananas can also be blend with passion fruit and oranges to give you a healthy fruit juice.

Okay, enough said about the benefits of bananas. I shall touch on my newest baking creation! The photos really don't look like much because of the dull brown colour. However, the smell of the cake was amazing and the texture of the cake was smooth. I am really proud of this cake creation because even I was shocked at the end results!

Banana Walnut Teacake

Banana Walnut Muffins

Banana Walnut Teacake and Muffins (:

Enjoy! (:

Cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal

Running For God

It has been such a long time since I’ve ran for God. This may sound stupid, but the thing that stopped me from running was the fear of getting bigger thighs.

But today, during church service, when I saw that video that Pastor Andy had put up for his preaching. It spoke to me so much.

Rick, the father’s son, wanted to run a marathon so badly and his father decided to enter it with him. As Rick was physically unable to do anything by himself, his father had to pull or push him during the marathon. The very last sentence of the video said “Don’t Run Alone”

When I saw that sentence, God spoke to me, He said, “Cheryl, come along and run with me.”

Running was one of sources that allowed me to remember who God is. Every time I run, I would plug in Christian music. It has never failed to speak to me. Every run that I’ve ran, many of the guys would look at me and give me the “I bet this girl can’t run far” look. But every single time, whenever they can no longer have the stamina to continue running, I will still keep going. God has told me, “because these men are relying on secular music or their own strength, whereas you are relying on my power and my strength, that is why you won’t grow weary.”

Every single time I’m upset or angry, God can speak to me through the runs. I am able to get recharged through the runs. I thank God for giving me such an avenue to recharge my spiritual strength. I still remember whenever I ran, I would carry with me this BIG and HUGE grin, because I can really sense God’s presence and I know He is there with me and for me yesterday, today and forevermore.

I believe that these runs that I’ve had also motivated me to have this feeling to want to do every single thing well for God, especially through my academics. I’ve forgotten feeling of wanting to use my academics to glorify God’s name. Because of God’s favour and providence, I’ve gotten the first in my cohort. But due to these victories, I was so concentrated on trying to be first again that I forgot about my purpose, which is to bring glory to God.

It has been a long time since a church service has spoken to me. Now it’s time for me to pick myself up and RUN!

Run for Jesus! So what if my thighs get bigger, right right? So long as my faith can be on solid rock, I’m going to run, I’m going to count on God.

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

IBSM!

Woohoo! I got selected to go for the International Business Study Mission to China and Hongkong! Oh my goodness! I’m so elated! :D

Finally! I get a chance to step into Hongkong! I have always wanted to go there ever since I was a small girl! I will finally be able to converse in my favourite dialect, Cantonese and I will be able to breathe in the air of Hongkong!

In addition to all these goodies, I will be able to shop in the clothing shop, H&M!

Hmmm… I’m going to use this opportunity to see if I really want to work overseas (: A part of me really wants to go overseas to work, to get away from Singapore for 6 months. But to be able to just survive on my own and be independent in a foreign country seems like a daring challenge. I don’t want to leave my home country just for internship.

Okay, switching topics, I’m just going to do some ranting on my favourite food! Haha! I love my peanut butter with everything! I seriously think I’m going crazy over my consumption of peanut butter. I eat it with muesli bars, cookies, apples and prunes. Prunes and peanut butter? You may be wondering what kind of combination is that. I agree with you! But it’s totally delicious! :D

My other favourite food is pork floss! I can eat pork floss with any staple food. I’ll fry my rice with mix vegetables, chicken rice mix and add a whole lot of pork floss! I’ll drench my chicken soup with pork floss. I’ll eat my silken tofu with pork floss. I’ll spread condensed milk on my multigrain bread and toss in some pork floss on top of the toasted bread.

Gosh, I still remember Amelia’s recommendation of the pork floss biscuits in Bangkok! I had actually intended to save a packet of pork floss crackers for my family, but I ended up devouring everything while watching a Hongkong drama serial.

:D All right, I better get back to my revision. I can’t wait to go for the Swissotel Christmas Buffet with the Bangkok group! I will finally be able to eat a TURKEY! I’ve never eaten a turkey before! Also, hopefully, I will be able to try the Christmas drink, eggnog? I heard about the goodness of an eggnog! Also, I hope to get my hands on the Christmas log cake! I’ve only eaten log cake once in my entire life and I feel so ecstatic just by seeing log cakes! I wonder if they have Green Tea flavoured Christmas log cakes :D

I’ll end my musings here!

Cheezelmomeezel
Cereal

when it comes to baking, you just need a little more patience.

Woo, I recently got hooked to baking again!

Initially, I just wanted to bake carrot cake, as I chanced upon the recipe in Women’s Weekly. I remembered that my bestie (Bangala!) loves carrot cake.

Apple Decoration for my Carrot Cake :D

Mr. Popcorn Robot loves Carrot Cake!

The recipe was unusually healthy. There was no need for butter but it was replaced with vegetable oil. Instead of using plain flour, I decided to use the healthy wholemeal flour! This is a live example of girls and their obsession with healthy ingredients to bake/cook unhealthy food. (:

Anyways, wholemeal flour is recommended to replace plain flour. Substitute maybe ½ a cup of plain flour for wholemeal flour. Wholemeal flour is not only healthy, but it gives a nutty flavour to cookies or cakes. As I only had one egg in my fridge, I could only make 3 ramekins of carrot cake.

Surprisingly, my second attempt of making a cake turned out well. Why was it a surprise to me? Because I tried making wholemeal banana cake for the first attempt and it failed miserably. My sister and my mom were so pleased with the carrot cake that they wanted more. But there was only 3 ramekins. ):

So, I decided to go to http://community.livejournal.com/bakebakebake/ as recommended by Women’s Weekly for people who simply love baking. That community is simply such a joy such for me! As a amateur in baking, I cannot follow these hard recipes by renowned chefs. But the recipes stated in this community were quite simple. I managed to source for easy recipes but sounded astonishingly delicious.

As I had no egg or butter in my fridge, I had to source for recipes that did not need these ingredients.

I managed to find the recipe for my favourite cheesecake, which is tofu cheesecake! (: This tofu cheesecake is healthy as instead of using cheese or oreo cookies, it uses tofu as a top substitute. I managed to bake granola biscuits as the base of my cheesecake. Sounds healthy, right? (: Instead of using sugar, I used honey as it is a better substitute. The tofu cheesecake was relatively easy to make as I only need to blend the stated ingredients and pour it on top of my granola biscuit base (:

Tofu Cheesecake!

Fruit Paradise Decoration For my Tofu Cheesecake!

Fruity Sunshine Rays Tofu Cheesecake!

Also, I managed to do a batch of raisin cookies. Initially, I got quite turned off by the idea of putting soya milk as one of the ingredients. Last time for the first attempt of the wholemeal banana cake, I used soya milk, as the result was horrible as the oil from the soya milk could not blend in well with the cake and the texture of the banana cake was not moist but hard because the soya milk could not give the cake a creamy feel. Anyhow, I did my batch of raisin cookies and once again, voila! It was crispy on the outside and moist in the inside! I loved the raisin cookies!

cookies with sunmaid raisin sunshine! :D

I tried to make another batch of cookies, oatmeal cookies as well as jam cookies. The oatmeal cookies tasted rather bland and a little difficult to chew as I did not use the instant oats but I used the wholegrain oats which needed a longer time to bake. The jam in the middle section of the cookie gave it a sweet taste to it, however, it was not cloyingly sweet but it tasted just nice. (:

Jam And Oatmeal Cookies (:

All these recipes also suited my dad’s palates as he has diabetes and the ingredients used were not granulated sugar or castor sugar but honey or brown sugar.

If I could have a dream, I would love to be a stay-home mom and bake for my family! HAHA!

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

Friends

Today, as I was sorting out my 2008 and 2009 photos. It was seriously astonishing how people change! The changes are due to their appearances as well as their characters.

There are people who often appeared in my 2008 photos but have yet disappeared when the New Year (2009) began. Yet, there are people who have remained during the both years. In addition to the 2009 collection, there were new faces whom I’ve tried hard to keep in contact with.

It amazes me how the friends whom I was not even close with during the secondary school years are my good friends during these polytechnic years. Even though we belonged to the same school (SCGS), the classes were probably in close proximity, but yet, our paths never crossed till we entered into polytechnic. Example of these friends are Xinyan, Zhiying and Audrie. Although we did not belong in the same polytechnics or junior colleges, we were closer than we were during the SCGS times.

zhiying and i (2007)

zhiying and i(2009)

It is also fascinating that I’ve still managed to keep in contact with some friends ever since primary and secondary school. Jazreel…my primary 2 hello kitty friend. Yvonne, my primary 4 friend, we created this campfire which was made of straws for our first primary 4 project. Abigail, my desert buddy as well as Saturday Morning Walks buddy. Gloria, my big sister who has always been there for me since the day I met her. Amelia, this funny valentine's day dinner girl as well as bangkok FACEB buddy! Angela, whoooo, this best friend of mine.. there were so many struggles and differences we faced during the NCC days, but we’ve really persevered till today (: I still remember the day when Angela and I were separated. When she was posted to St. Andrews Junior College and I went to Serangoon Junior College, we spent many hours crying on the phone, I was sitting in my room and she was crying at her house car park area.

abigail and i(beginning of 2009)

abigail and i (end of 2009)

amelia, jazreel and i (2007)

amelia, jazreel and i (2009)

angela, emily and i (2007)

angela and i (2009)

Whether or not these friends last till the day I breathe my last breath, I’m not exactly sure myself. But they were definitely friends that were blessed by God. (:

My Love For Food

This is about my ravings about deserts and other food. I just came back from breakfast at Shunfu Mart with my dad and sister. I tried the abacus yam balls, it was $3 a plate! What a rip-off. The mushroom pieces weren’t big enough for the juices to penetrate into the mushrooms, but yet at the same time, the yam balls were smooth and tasty though.

Due to my dissatisfaction about my breakfast, (breakfast is the meal where I happily gorge myself) I decided to try oneh oneh from “Bake Fresh” by Tina Sum as well as the egg tarts. I think I have a fetish for egg tarts. Be it Portuguese egg tarts or the normal bright yellow ones, whenever my eyes are fixed on them, I just have to taste them.

Let me first comment about the oneh oneh. At first, I had my doubts about it, as it had looked pathetically small. The tag in front of the oneh oneh stated “3 for $1”, I asked the shopowner if it was tasty, she smiled at me and nodded her head. I thought to myself, “Since I had asked such a rhetorical question, I have to purchase it now.” So, it was more of an unwilling purchase by a reluctant customer. I also bought the cute bright yellow egg tart.

I decided to leave the egg tart alone first and devour the oneh oneh. I had wanted to leave the best for the last. I bit into the green ball with white coconut around it. It tasted good. It was succulent and the brown sauce was flowing down my throat in a satisfying manner. Initially, I wanted to save the other 2 for my project work later. But temptation had set in and I finished them off. Next up was the egg tart. Much to my disappointment, the crust wasn’t crispy and the egg filling was not cloyingly sweet. Not that I like my egg filling to be too sugary, but it just did not have much sweet taste to it.

It’s nearly impossible to find a good egg tart in Singapore though. Although, I had eaten one at the Takashimaya food fair. It had cost me $2 a piece but yet, the crust was thick and crispy and the egg filling was moist and sweet.

If I could choose, I would rather have deserts as my regular meals. But that is if provided I do not balloon up after the sweet main courses.

I remember a few weeks ago, I met up with Abigail to eat at Miss Clarity’s Café at Purvis Street. We ordered the caramel steamer, banana tart, mud ooze, bread and butter pudding as well as rhum baba.

The caramel steamer was nothing to boast about. But the banana tart was simply gorgeous. The tart was baked to a beautiful brown colour and the heat from the baked tart and bananas combined with the cold vanilla ice cream was the greatest match ever. It’s still my most favourite desert to date. Abigail and I could not stop “ooh”-ing and “aah”-ing at the deserts. We set our eyes on the mud ooze, which was literally oozing out chocolate from the chocolate brownie. Once the vanilla ice cream and the mud ooze goes into your mouth, you can immediately feel the sensation of happiness going down into your stomach. The ice cream immediately melts into your mouth, mixing together with the chocolate. The last desert we were impressed with was the bread and butter pudding, which was Abigail’s favourite. I loved how moist the desert was. Especially when we ate the pudding together with the special sauce, the combination of the two was good for our palates.

The desert that I was looking forward to but was deeply disappointed was the Rhum Baba. It looked great, it had two creamish white cakes with light brown sides and cream with berries coulisse. I suppose it could only satisfy the prepubescent, it showed goodness but tasted really weird. The cakes were rock hard and the cream was not cold. In addition, the sugar syrup that drenched the cakes was awful.

But all in all, the deserts from Miss Clarity’s were great. Next up, we went to search for the famous “Food For Thought” which was near Purvis Street. We opened the doors and the whole cosy café was filled with the aroma of baked pizzas. Although Abigail and I were only searching for deserts, the pizzas were tempting enough. The boss at the café was a nice gentleman who offered his advice on which deserts we should choose. I was enticed by the red velvet cake with cream cheese. But as we decided we wanted something different, we left the café but felt guilty due to the boss’ nice attitude towards his customers. Abigail and I made a pact to go back and patronise that place next time.

We went to Jidechi and decided to order their favourite desert, durian Puree served with fresh durian. Although the desert suited our palates, but perhaps we had previously stuffed ourselves too much, hence the durian puree was unable to satisfy both of us.

Deserts were made for mankind to get pleasure from. Hopefully, I can get my hands on the red velvet cake with cream cheese soon!

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

God - the One who was there, is there, and will always be there for me :D

As this new semester begins, I find myself getting hit by obstacles after obstacles. Despite the first few challenges faced, I find God’s comfort in these friendship challenges. But truly to God’s grace, because of these cold wars, my friend was able to see God’s love through me. I really feel that I’ve made a difference in someone’s life! At least I didn’t just go through my poly years without impacting anyone. (:

Everything that I’ve gotten for the past semesters should be the past… I have to look forward and trust God.

“But forget all that – it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new. See, I have already begun. Do you not see it?” Isaiah 43: 18 & 19

Plus, God’s promises are my armour and shield! (:

“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulties, you will not drown…” Isaiah 43: 2

Every time when a new semester begins, I find myself picking up the pieces from the past semester. I begin to wonder what was it I did right for the previous semester to be able to get good grades. Somehow or another, the pieces of the puzzle start to form a picture and I am finally able to see that it’s God’s net that is the one who catches me whenever I fall and rebounds me back to the ground.

Who am I by Casting Crowns

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Woo~ I love this song a lot… It begins to remind me that I am nothing without God. Humans are forgetful people by nature… I need constant reminder to go back to God with gratitude for all the things that He has done for me.

“But I am like an olive tree, thriving in the house of God. I will always trust in God’s unfailing love. I will praise you forever, O God, for what You have done…” Psalm 52 : 8 & 9

(: Okay, moving on to another topic… Today was the first time I spoke to Sister Cassie! She’s down-to-earth and a really sweet person. I feel really glad that she’s getting engaged despite everything that the couple has gone through. What doesn’t kill you will only make you stronger. (:

Since I’m on the topic of love, I shall ponder upon what happened recently… (okay, I’m relieved and glad that no one reads my blog.) How does one feel when the person you have liked before has a partner? I mean… regardless of whether the feelings have faded or are still evidently there… there is a pinch, right? Suddenly, I feel horrible.

God!!! Please remind me that You are the only One that lasts forever. Love? No! Concentrate on God. I’ve managed to convince myself that it is not possible for anyone (or at least anyone I liked) to have interest in me.

As sad as it sounds, there are some perks to singlehood (:

God says in 1 Cor 7:34
“In the same way, a woman who is no longer married or has never been married can be devoted to the Lord and holy in body and in spirit.”

People say, God has planned someone for each and every one of His children. But… I guess, I am different. O.o

God bless you all people who are having partners! I believe love does exist, but apparently, it cannot be found in mine.

God bless people like me who are single! 1 Cor 7 : 35 “I am saying this for your benefit, not to place restrictions on you. I want you to do whatever will help you serve the Lord best, with as few distractions as possible.”

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal Thiang

Look at the bright side of life, Thiang Pi Pa...

-Titleless-

O Holy Night - MercyMe

O Holy Night! The stars are brightly shining,
It is the night of the dear Saviour's birth.
Long lay the world in sin and error pining.
Till He appeared and the Spirit felt its worth.
A thrill of hope the weary world rejoices,
For yonder breaks a new and glorious morn.
Fall on your knees! Oh, hear the angel voices!
O night divine, the night when Christ was born;
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!
O night, O Holy Night , O night divine!

When this song was randomly played on my iTunes, my memories went back to the Christmas session my cell celebrated together. Many things have happened ever since then. There are the things that should have happened and things that should not have happened.

I’m trying to think of how to put them into words… Have these different occurrences cause me to be disappointed? Yes, they have. Sometimes, when all these different battles come, there is a tendency to forget who God is.

But yet, God reminds me once again… “ ‘I am the Alpha and the Omega – the beginning and the end.’ says the Lord God. ‘I am the one who is, who always was, and who is still to come – the Almighty One.’ ” Rev 1:9

Many trials may come, dryness… not knowing what to do next for God… stuck in the same place and waiting… But these two songs taught me something new...

Heart of Worship – Hillsong United

when the music fades
all is stripped away
and i simply come
longing just to bring
something that's of worth
that will bless your heart

i'll bring you more than a song
for a song in itself
is not what you have required
you search much deeper within
through the way things appear
you're looking into my heart


I'm coming back to the heart of worship
and it's all about you
It's all about you, Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things i've made it
when it's all about you
it's all about you, Jesus

King of endless worth
no one could express
how much you deserve
though i'm weak and poor
all i have is yours
every single breath

This song reminds me of this verse
“…I am the one who searches out the thoughts and intentions of every person…” Rev 2: 23

Yes, not everything that I do may be excellent from a human’s perspective. But as long as I put in my best for God, that is all that He needs.

I Offer My Life – Don Moen

All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before you, oh Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaims
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, alll of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to you

Lord, I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord I offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer you my life

What can we give
That you have not given?
And what do we have
That is not already yours?
All we possess
Are these lives we're living
That's what we give to you, Lord

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

Little Cream Puff

Once about a time, there lived a little cream puff. One day, the cream puff cream gets sucked up by the world.

Without the cream, can the little cream puff still be called a cream puff? No. It will just be called a puff. The cream is what makes the cream puff special.

The little cream puff went to find the maker, the creator, of the cream puffs to ask for cream. But the little cream puff just couldn’t find the maker. It hopped everywhere. It went to cake lane, it ran to doughnut road, it skipped to sugar roll street.

The little cream puff got really tired. It sat on the road and started crying. It thought to itself, “maker…maker…where are you? I need you so desperately.”

Suddenly, it felt someone scooping it into his hands. It was the maker!

The maker said, “little cream puff, I was with you all along. I am still with you. But you were searching for me at all the wrong places. Why didn’t you go back to the cream puff house to find me?”

The little cream puff was brought back to the cream puff house and was refilled with custard cream.

A happy ending.

But there are more cream puffs out there that are still searching for the maker at all the wrong places.

Little cream puffs, ask your creator to fill in more cream for you.

OH YOU BRING – HILLSONG UNITED

Oh you bring hope to the hopeless
And light to those in the darkness
And death to life, now I'm alive

Oh you give peace to the restless
And joy to homes that are broken
I see you now, in you I'm found

And you open the door for me
And you lay down your life to set me free
All that I am will serve you lord

Oh you fill those who are empty
And rescue those in the valley
And through it all you calm my soul

Oh now you find me in my weakness
And heal the wounds of my heartache
And worship for you in spirit and truth

And you open the door for me
And you lay down your life to set me free
All that I am will serve you lord

And you open my eyes to see
All the wondering all of christ in me
Jesus you're everything I need

(Worship)

All honor
All glory
All praise to you (repeat)

And you open the door for me
And you lay down your life to set me free
All that I am will serve you lord

And you open my eyes to see
All the wondering all of christ in me
Jesus you're everything I need

LOVE

Love is a word that is often misused by people. There are many interpretations for this word. Recently, I had a dream regarding this topic on love. Yes, I agree that it feels good to be loved. But I feel that love with the opposite gender will make you feel euphoric one moment and the next moment, you’re deep in the pits. I consider that it’s a similar case as a person who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Ughhh.

My friends who are attached always encourage me to never get attach. I feel that it’s quite hilarious whenever they tell me that, since it is quite ironic. Anyways, I managed to convince myself that I will never be able to find a partner. I will probably bore the person to death. Plus, being together with someone requires a person to change. People who are usually merry and cheerful will have a frown plastered on their face whenever they’re in a dilemma of falling in love.

There’s another kind of love I’ve discovered, the love to give without expecting any returns. During this semester holidays, I’ve been quite free. Usually whenever I have the long term breaks, I would work part-time jobs so that my mom will be pleased. But this time, I got fired hence I went to do community service to fill the free slots in my schedule. On Mondays, I will go to the Institute of Mental Health to help the patients in their art and craft. This coming Thursday, I will help helping the kindergarten kids. I find this type of love more meaningful than the first.

Last but not least, there is a love that I long to be taken deeper. But yet, I find that there is no longer the desire and passion to chase after Him (my God, my Saviour). I know I’ve disappointed God many times. But yet, He still remembers that I’m His daughter, that I’m still a child of God. I yearn to repay His love…but yet in my heart, the zeal is no longer there.

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal Thiang

My Amazing September

September 2009 is simply the best months of the year (: I can name 6reasons why!

Firstly, it is the month where I can finally remove my braces!!! AAAAAAHHHH!!!

Secondly, it is the month where I went on my first overseas trip, taking zee airplane, after more than 12 years!

Thirdly, I had an amazing time at Bangkok with the FACEB clique.

Fourthly, God has blessed me with a job at Miss Clarity Café.

Fifthly, I will be getting my Foochow Association Award.

Sixthly, I got my results back, which has been blessed by God. GPA = 4.0, 4As with Distinctions. Just when I thought I would do badly for this semester because I had study the bare minimum for each of the examination paper as well as I was extremely distracted with the preparations for the Bangkok trip, but God has amazed me with His power (:

Principles of Marketing (PMKT) examination paper was the worst paper I have ever had. I had spent 1 hour on the first PMKT question as the invigilator had made many noises and movements and caused me distracted. I wanted to cry because I simply had no time for the rest of my other 3 questions. I hyperventilated during the paper because I was so nervous and scared that I will do badly. After the paper, I teared at home but I surrendered the paper to God. During my periods of anxiety, God had told me in Psalms 121: 1-2 “I look up to the mountains – does my help come from there? My help comes from the Lord who made Heavens and the earth.” I got an A for that paper (:

Business Communications 2, there was no examination paper for this subject but during the first table topic test, I was so nervous, I couldn’t think straight. The following week for my second table topic test, God had reminded me of my most favourite verse. Isaiah 41:10 “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” With such great encouragement from God, I was able to stand in front of the class and deliver my speech with confidence. However, I never expect myself to get an A, lest an AD. (:

For French, I seriously thought I would fail this subject because I felt that I couldn’t enunciate any of the foreign language words. I battled with the difficulty of writing French as well. But God had surprised me with an AD.

When I went back to my TAWG on 21st August 2009, I read what I wrote. God spoke to me on the bus after my Finance International Trade paper. I had just finished my first examination paper and God told me that even before I ask God for help, He already knows I need help. Even if I don’t request for His help, He will help me no matter what. Matt 7:9-11 “You parents – if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask Him.” An effective prayer is having a childlike faith to believe God hears your prayer and trusting that He will help you simply because He wants the best for you.

But through it all, after receiving my results and feeling elated, God reminded me that I have to work equally hard to get into the Kingdom of God. Results, achievements and awards do not matter at the end of the day. Ultimately, I’m still running the race for God. Spending the rest of my days in the courts of God is my main goal. (: Everything that I achieve on earth is nothing compared to the days where I enter Heaven and spend the rest of my life with God.

Cheezeelmomeezel,
Cereeeeal loves Christ!

Faithful and Fellowship

Hello,

These few days, God has been teaching me about remaining faithful and remaining in fellowship with God. Yes, it is easy to get salvation because Jesus has already done the work for us. But it is ultimately up to us to maintain it.

It is sad when you see believers who think they love God based on their weekly church attendance.

Just like how a pen ink fades away in a book after a long while, will our names fade away from the Book of Life if we do not maintain a close relationship with God?

1 John 2: 24, 25, 28

“So you must remain faithful to what you have been taught from the beginning. If you do, you will remain in fellowship with the Son and with the Father. And in this fellowship, we enjoy the eternal life He promised us.”

“…Remain in fellowship with Christ so that when He returns, you will be full of courage and not shrink back in shame.”

It is also sad to know that there are some believers who suddenly leave church because they feel tired or burnt out. When we are tired, isn’t God our only source of strength?

Why do we leave church, thinking that it’s time to take a break or we will get recharge after a break from church?

Once you fall, ask God for His hand. Don’t pick yourself up on your own.

Roller Coaster

Last week was an amazing week for me, because I WENT TO BANGKOK!!! It was my first time sitting in the airplane after more than 10 years. I’ve always had the fear of taking aeroplanes, because, when I was young, I took an airplane to Indonesia with my family and my ears were so pain that I ran to the door and wanted to open the door to get out.

The airplane flights were really scary!!! But Amelia, Brandon, Edwin and Chuan Fa were really good people to travel with (:

Amelia gave me a lot of fashion advice as well as helped me to bargain because I always end up getting bullied by the shop owners. -.-

Through this Bangkok experience, I realized many good qualities of these 3 guys .(I doubt I would personally say these to them, otherwise, they will get big heads) They were patient, gentlemanly, respectful and… All in all, they are the type of guys that cannot be found in this world.

After I came back from Bangkok, I had a big major shocking news because I did something wrong in my CCA activity and it had caused a big chaos. Sigh. God will help me solve the problem.

The next day after I came back from Bangkok, I started my first day of work. It was fun and not to mention, the food Miss Clarity Café serves is really delicious! (or rather, smells delicious) I also found out that God had blessed me with this job. On the day that I applied for this job, it was the same day that the counter staff had tendered her resignation due to school attachment. If I had applied a day earlier or later, I wouldn’t have gotten the job.

The next thing I need to do is to get bands for the FACEB Bangkok friends (:

FACEB. (FA.AME.CHER.EDWI.BRANDO)

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cheryl Thiang

my 3 days of spiritual empowerment (:

This week was one of the most unexpected happening weeks for me! (: I had a list of church activities lined up for me from Friday to Sunday. Initially, I hesitated on going for all of them. But God helped me manage my time well that I was able to go for these events. It was an amazing 3 days of spiritual empowerment!

Friday, I had SP empowerment in church. I learnt about dealing with disappointment and disillusionment. It was very timely indeed. Considering what had happened in my family recently. Refocusing my eyes on God’s covenant and character are very important things that keep my hope alive.

Saturday, I went for the The Zone – Hillsongs United Concert (thank you, Brandon. Even though he won’t be reading this.) It was an amazing praise and worship experience that will never be forgotten. This experience is indeed very different from the ones we have in IGNYTE. Yes, the music by the worship ministry is excellent, but the peoples’ energy is completely different. I’m unsure if it was a hype thing that was going on in the concert. But I know that the pastor’s preaching changed it all. Yes indeed, Singaporeans, especially my generation, are lured into temptations after temptations set up by the devil.

Sunday, I went for PTF, Tenet class as well as service. Ah, all of them were wonderful experiences. There was a change in the atmosphere of the PTF members and I was so excited at the sudden change. It must have been God had spoken to Brother Andrew about the methods on bringing the PTF members to another intercessory prayer level. God works wonders!!! There is much undiscovered potential in PTF and it is up to the leaders and the members to uncover it.

Tenet class, which is very much coincidentally linked to Saturday’s preaching, is about dating and sexuality. It is obvious that dating is the limelight of all youths. But when dating is for the wrong reasons or dating when you are still insecure about yourself is dangerous. I do appreciate my singlehood. It gives me time to think about who God has planned for me, it allows me to exercise patience. Also, waiting for the perfect man allows God to complete me. I, as well as God, will not allow myself to start dating when I’m not completed by God. It is impossible for me to think that by finding a boyfriend means that I’m completed and a whole.

In secondary 4 (before I knew Christ), all my friends knew me as someone who was so anxious to find a boyfriend. I felt so insecure about myself and I wanted that one man to change my insecurity. I wanted that one man to give me love and acceptance.

But after I knew Christ, the desperation wore off. Yes, I liked a guy from church for 11 months. During those periods, God moulded me. From wanting that guy to notice me, to like me, to say that he liked me, it changed to another kind of motivation that activated my passion for Christ.

I can safely say now that I do not like anyone currently as it distracts me from Christ. I have not come to the level whereby I can focus on God as well as a man. Yes, there are sudden feelings that rushes back for the same man (because he is an honourable man of God) but it is better to wait as God has better things waiting for me!

I may not be experienced in dating. But I do know that courtship is not something to be meddled with. In my opinion, it is dating with an eye to marriage. Marriage? Serious? Why so dramatic?

That’s just my opinion, craft yours (:

During service today, I learnt a lot from Pastor Gerald. Yes, I have experienced God’s love and grace. But now it is time to be like the transformed Nicodemus and stand up for Christ especially when He is being persecuted. Nicodemus went all out for Christ even if it meant losing his popularity, losing his position, losing his achievements and the most important of all, losing his life FOR CHRIST!

Before this service, much is unknown about Nicodemus. But there is much to learn. Similar to Saturday’s preaching, these small stories in the Bible are overlooked. But when one carefully studies them carefully, s/he finds treasure.

Indeed, Nicodemus practiced what God said in a verse, “I will show you what it’s like when someone comes to Me, listens to My teaching and then follows it. It is like a person building a house who digs deep and lays a foundation on solid rock. When the floodwaters rise and break against that house, it stands firm because it is well built.” Luke 6:47-48

Amen. (;

Cheezemomeezel,
Cereal

Rev 21:4

There will be a day – Jeremy Camp

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing….

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.

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Yesterday was one of the most tiring days of July. But God never fails to remind me of His goodness.

Yes, right now, I may face endless tears that never goes dry.

But God promises, Rev 21:4, “God will wipe every tear from their eyes and there will be no more death, or sorrow, or crying, or pain. All these things will be gone forever.”

AMEN! (:

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

Disappointed with God? Don't be. [:

During the 18th to the 22nd of every month, it is always the most tiring week.

This month, I broke down.

I have a post-it plastered on my wall above my table. It says, “God will not let anything happen to us in our life unless He has a good purpose for it. Trust God with your circumstances!”

In the midst of all these disappointments, God had shown me a light.

Hebrews 11:13 & 16
“All these people died still believing what God had promised them. They did not receive what was promised, but they saw it all from a distance and welcome it… But they were looking for a better place, a Heavenly Homeland. That is why God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them.”

Even though circumstances never seem to be improving, the people in the bible embraced the tough future. Don’t dwell too much on the earthly promises that it causes you to rely on it.

Ask yourself, “What’s the point of having these promises if it causes your relationship with God to deteriorate?”

Woohoo! (:

Whenever something has caused you to be disappointed with God, know that you’re just a foreigner on earth, and you have a heavenly prize waiting for you!

My favourite verse that has carried me through since O levels (:
Isaiah 41:10 lays 5 promises that we should hold deeply in our hearts

1) Fear not, for God is with You

2) Be not dismayed, for He is your God

3) God will strengthen you.

4) Yes, He will help you

5) He will uphold you with your righteous right hand.

Above all else, in every season, in every trouble and circumstance, He is still God, you have a reason to sing and worship.


Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal

please give me a new revelation..

On December 2008, I listed four things I wanted to do for God on my desktop, or promises that God had told me.

Things for God:

1.    Play guitar for God

2.    Water baptism

3.    Prayer Task Force Leader

4.    Spiritual Parent

All four things have been accomplished. But I ask myself, is it the right time? I asked Taby if I became an SP at the right time, because I really didn’t feel that it’s a good timing at all. Taby’s reply was, “I think it’s the perfect timing.”

Hopefully it really is.

After all these things for God are done, I feel as though there’s nothing left for me to pursue. I’m asking God to give me a new revelation or promise soon..

cheezelmomeezel,

Cereal 

ughh. i just spent my entire Sunday afternoon and night researching on fashion. the bad part is... all these research won't be added to my GPA! 

okay, i have to seriously get out of this addiction mode. 

i have a fetish for sweet pink items (:

credits to: voguefemme

i simply adore the pink ballerina pumps! 

hopefully, i can find the western fashion styles in bangkok as well as kuala lumpur. because it's too expensive and not financial advisable for me to fly off to australia or america to find these street styles. 

someone, throw a bag of gold in front of me. 

kidding. okay, focus. focus on more important things. 

i have 2 tests this week. God, pour Your blessings on this girl who wasted her day away. 

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

die-hard shopping habits

Rotaract Induction and Installation was over yesterday. I didn’t contribute much to the preparations, I must admit. But during the registration period, it was seriously hectic and my alphabets were so jumbled up that I had difficulty spelling the members’ names. That certainly amused them.

I finally received my Rotaract name cards. It makes me sound oh-so-professional (:

I’m finally done with my Marketing Project as well as Mai’s America Movie Review for my intercultural communication lesson. It’s about a Vietnamese girl who goes to America to further her college and university education. She tries very hard to fit into the American culture and hence experiencing a downward spiral of emotions. I must say, I bow in admiration to those who are able to go to a foreign country alone to study.

I seriously cannot wait for this 3^rd semester to end! In September, I’m going KL with my sister for a few days and in December, I will be going to Bangkok with Jazreel and Meiping. I haven’t taken an airplane in over 12 years? Wish me luckk.

This brings me down to my next point, MONEY. I have to start earning money so that I can spend it on my KL and Bangkok trips! I have to stop shopping in Singapore, since almost everything in imported from Thailand, Hongkong, Korea and more.

I’m dying to go to New York to shop! I was talking to Angela and she was saying that during the sale periods in America, all the big sizes were normally sold out and the Asian sizes are left on the clothes rack. This is so opposite for clothes boutiques in Singapore. All the size 8 and 10 are normally sold out. Pshh.

Singapore girls are seriously getting skinnier. This is frightening.

I’m signing off here. I have to rush through my International Trade Project.

Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal 

a light to guide the nations

Isaiah 42: 6-7

"I, the Lord, have called you to demonstrate My righteousness. I will take you by hand and guard you, and I will give you to My people, Israel, as a symbol of my covenant with them. And you will be a light to guide the nations. You will open the eyes of the blind. You will free the captives from prison, releasing those who sit in dark dungeons."

amen. (:

i'm going to let my light shine!

Hillsong Kids - Let Your Light Shine Lyrics

 

Verse 1:
Crep, creep, creep in the dark fear comes to blow out all your lights.
It doesn't want you telling everybody that Jesus rules, all right!

Chorus:
Let your light shine Whoa
Let your light shine Whoa
Let Your light shine and let Jesus shine through you

Verse 2:
Giant fears are really small when all you see is God
Don't be afraid to stand up tall and give a great big shout

Bridge:
I'm not scared, I'm gonna let my light shine
You're not scared, you're gonna let your light shine
We're not scared, we're gonna let our light shine
Cos Jesus is Lord, and He's gonna let His light shine

i think this song is really cute. (:

it is similar to matt 5:16

"In the same way let your light shine in front of people. Then they will see the good that you do and praise your Father in heaven"

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

this is His command

Hillsong - Through It All

You are forever in my life
You see me through the seasons
Cover me with Your hand
And lead me in Your righteousness
And I look to You
And I wait on You

I will sing to You, Lord
A hymn of love
For Your faithfulness to me
I’m carried in everlasting arms
You’ll never let me go
Through it all

through my difficult times, Lord, i trust that You'll never let me go. 

"this is my command - be strong and courageous. do not be afraid or discouraged. for the Lord is with you wherever you go."  joshua 1:9

"fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes I will help you. I will uphold you with my righteous right hand"  isaiah 41:10

these are His promises. IM NOT AFRAID OF THE GIANTS IN MY LIFE!! 

FANG MA GUO LAI BAAAAAA!! 

because my God will protect me! 

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

i want to fall in love with You.

Love Song for a Saviour - Jars of Clay

...

Someday she'll trust Him 
And learn how to see Him 
Someday He'll call her 
And she will come running 
Fall in His arms, the tears will fall down 
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with You

i'm going to make my strong stand.. for God.

I’ve encountered many disappointing issues. One of the issues was regarding philandering fools. I can’t... no, I abhor men who can’t seem to draw a boundary with their girl friends. Worse still, I despise men who treat girls like items... they date several girls at one go, trying out to see who is the most suitable for them.

 

But I realized, through these disappointing issues, that I’ve grown too comfortable with my CCA friends. I did not make my strong stand for God. Due to this closeness, I asked myself, would I allow myself to conform to these worldly patterns?

 

I was irate about the situation, but at the same time, dismal as well. But as I was praying, I realized that Jesus is control over all situations.

Just as how Jesus had loved Judas who had betrayed Him, I shall learn from His grace, mercy and love.

Help me to see things in Your perspective, God...

my love for pasar malam (:

Woo. I really should consider starting my pastry shop cum drinks stall. HAHA. I just spent 1 and a half hours boiling barley for my family (due to Singapore’s blistering temperatures) My sister commented its one of the best barley drinks she had ever drank. (:

Also, on some days, I would serve my dad black coffee and my mom green tea. -.- You can call me the drinks girl.

Woo. My dream is to set up a bakery stall after I graduate from University (: Many people in the world work just for money alone. When you see their fatigue and stress, you realize it is not worth it at all.

I rather work for my passion and enjoy what I will be doing for my next 30 years. :D

Ohhh. Do you know I really love Pasar Malams xD there’s one just outside my estate now! You can imagine how elated I feel. WAHAH.

My favourites are the RAMLY BURGER!! AND THE CUP CORN!!

I really love pasar malams because of the stalls sell unique (and amusing) items. Winnie the pooh alarm clock, sesame street uno cards, funny looking bears and hand puppets, cute pyjamas and the list goes on... But my favourite part is the food!! :D

Roti John, Roti Jala, Muah Chee, Colourful Steam Cakes, many kinds of Sausages (black pepper chicken sausage, char siew sausage, cheese sausage, Taiwan sausage), fried fish fillet, Cotton Candy, Popcorn and many more!

Also, the blinding lights coming from the food vendors’ stalls make me feel a little nostalgic. Shunfu estate had only held pasar malam twice. On both occasions, my maid would follow me down and buy the different types of food so that we can try them together. But today, I went down alone, wishing that she was there with me. But i guess not...

What a weird way to end this entry.

Anyway, God bless! :D

lalalalelelelololo

recently, i keep on breaking several glass items.. firstly, a brand new strawberry jam, then i went to NTUC to buy another type of jam. and i broke the brand new raspberry jam again. -.- yesterday, i broke a cup. aaaand today, i broke another cup whilst spilling my cereal drink on myself ): eesh. 

feeling very tired.. im going to have 3 cca meetings this week. monday, thursday and fridays. ughh. i was telling God that, i really desire to be His leader. even if i get a high position in my cca, so what? i don't feel the fulfillment. 

but i believe, if i do God's works, there's such a pleasure and excitement of accomplishing it. 

i do know that God has placed me to be a community service director for a reason. so no complaining, cheryl. :X

hoohoo, good news, i think ive finally flee from the infatuation i had for 11 months through God's grace! :D i've been struggling for a long time. but when i surrendered it to God, He took it away from me. (:

"we do not have a High Priest who is unable to sympathize with our weakness, but we have One who has been tempted in every way, just as we are - yet was without sin. let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." (heb 4:15-16)

keep my heart pure for God :D 

it wasn't easy. but i know that God wants me to let go of him so that i can focus on God alone and realign my direction back to God. 

and its great to know that this testimony of mine is able to help another church friend of mine. there's this particular sentence i love a lot, "if God is not center of your life, the guy you like would be more of a burden than a blessing."  

as my favourite phrase goes, cheezelmomeezel!! 

God bless you all [:

thank you, dad.

Today, I had lunch with my dad. It’s been a long time since I actually dared to. If I eat with my dad, there must at least be a person accompanying us. (eg. my mother, brother or sister)

My dad is the only person who remembers all my food likes and dislikes. I never appreciated this point until last year.

We were talking and he was really proud that I made it into the Director’s List. Initially, he was scolding me for being really lazy in the past and that I had never took my work seriously. But, his tone suddenly changed. He said, “But your mindset suddenly changed. And I don’t know why.”

I smiled. (It is true, ever since I rededicated my life to God in August 2007; I suddenly changed from a super lazy student to a girl who worked for her grades. All the teachers and family members noticed that change. But I never expected my dad to notice, since he was never around.)

I never made my dad proud before, it was always my brother that did him proud.

Suddenly, there was a hawker that sat on our table. He turned to the hawker and beamed, “This is my daughter. She’s the youngest.”

will i dance for you, Jesus?

I can only imagine - mercyme

I can only imagine what it will be like, when I walk by Your side...
I can only imagine, what my eyes will see, when Your Face is before me!
I can only imagine. I can only imagine.
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine, when that day comes, when I find myself standing in the Son!
I can only imagine, when all I will do, is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!

Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?

Will I dance for you, Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing 'Hallelujah!'? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!

I can only imagine! Yeah! I can only imagine!! Only imagine!!!
I can only imagine.

I can only imagine, when all I do is forever, forever worship You!
I can only imagine."

(:

come home running

chris tomlin - come home running

Oh heart of mine, why must you stray?
From one so fair you run away
And one more time you have to pay
The heaviness of needless shame

Oh heart of mine, come back home
You've been too long out on your own
And He's been there all along
Watching for you down the road

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

Oh child of God so dearly loved
And ransomed by the Savior's blood
And called by name, Daughter and Son
Wrapped in the robe of righteousness

So come home running
His arms are open wide
His name is Jesus
He understands
He is the answer
You are looking for
So come home running
Just as you are

my friend, jazreel, introduced this song to me. 

dear friends, if youre looking for comfort. Jesus wants you to come back to Him. 

come just as you are. 

He's waiting for you. He knows what you're going through. (: 

everlasting God. never changing God.

Everlasting God by Ross Parsley

one thing i know that i have found.. through all the troubles that surrounds.. 

You are the rock that never fails.. You never fail.. 

one thing i know that i believe, through every blessing ive received..

You are the only one that stays.. You always stay

You never change.. 

Youre the same.. 

You are the everlasting God 

You will remain after the day is gone and things above have past.. 

everlasting God. 

this song really touched me because when things dont go right in my life, i still know that God will never change and God is faithful to His promises (psalm 145)

whatever He has promised me before, it will never change, just because things dont look pretty.

i realized that yes, i can depend on my friends for comfort and encouragement. but God is the only one that will stay behind and look after me.

God: My daughter, everything will be fine. 

Young Cheryl: yes, Daddy. i believe. 

God. i will always believe in You. 

sad yet still trusting

today, as i was going to do my module enrolment. in the morning (during games day) i was depressed because i thought i could not be in the same class as my clique because they chose FIT (financial international trade) and i chose IEF (international economic and finance) last time. 

but another of my friend told me that the previous selections of IEF and FIT did not matter and now we can reselect again. i was filled with joy. hence i decided that i would forgo my passion, which is economics, and go ahead to join my clique. 

to my dismay, when it was time to enrol into the classes, my computer jammed. i could not get into the class (TB09) my clique was intending to go. everyone of them got in except for me. as it was still jamming for 10 mins, i was tearing and shouting, "God God why did you let this happen to me!" 

TB09 (FIT class) was filled and i just chose TB01 (IEF class). my friend, taby, told me, maybe God wants you to get out of your comfort zone. and i thought, okay, maybe she's right. 

i burst into tears when i finally realized that i could not be in the same class as my clique. i was going to be all alone. 

but God reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11 i believe God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. it is going to be difficult to go through the next semester all by myself. but im going to trust in God's plans. 

Romans 8:28, i love God, i believe everything He has done is good.

hallelujah, Jesus. 

my exam results [:

the first sentence: ALL GLORY TO GOD. 

Thanks be to God, who always causes me to triumph and overcome (:

the day before yesterday, i was praying fervently for my results. God's peace was poured unto me. i felt calm and knowing that i would do well. it wasn't the confidence of my own abilities, for God said take no confidence from the flesh.

in the modules where i scored distinctions, BMGT and MAEC, they were hardly the modules i expected an A grade. 

in BMGT module, i didnt attend the lectures nor did i pay attention during the tutorials. (i tried, but it was too boring) plus, i only had 4 hours to study for the BMGT paper. i was so scared because i did not want to get below a B grade. i cried out to God to help me and i went to bed after studying. i believed that God will enable me to do well. during the paper itself, i could really sense that it was not by my strength that enabled me to do this paper but it was by the Holy Spirit that was teaching and guiding me.

God has heard and answered my desperate cries. (:

in MAEC module, the paper was incredibly difficult, it was the most difficult paper set in the past 3 years. and i thought, "oh great. there goes my A grade." but i prayed to God and submitted all my worries to God. i never expected an AD, but God knew how much i loved economics and i believe He blessed me. 

in DSS module, i didn't understand anything at all. i did not do my tutorials, i had attempt, but i didn't know how to do any of them. a few days before the project submission, i suddenly understood the concepts. and a day before the project submission, my group realized that we did not do 60% of the project and we had to rush through it. and amazingly, my teacher praised my group, telling us "your project is one of the best in the cohort." thanks to God. (: we also had a major exam on a monday. the day before (which is sunday) was the day for the preparation of exam. initially i didn't want to go for the first SP class, but i chose to because this verse struck me hard. "keep the Sabbath day holy. don't pursue your own interests on that day..." (isa 58:13) i was thinking, oh crap, fine. i will go for the SP class then come back to study for the exam. 

but God did bless me, because suddenly, i knew how to do all the tutorials. even the challenging ones. it really amazed me how God had changed an IT idiot into an IT genius on that day of the exam. 

initially, i was setting my expectations for my grades.

MAEC: A, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: B+, LMS: C, IAC: A, DSS: B. 

GPA: 3.58

as i was looking at it, i was like.. aiyo, seems so impossible. tsk. 

but what i got for the results.

MAEC: AD, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: AD, LMS: C+, IAC: A, DSS: A.

GPA: 3.875

my God is a God of possibilities. there's nothing impossible for Him. He has given more than what i had expected.

could i have done it myself?

i think not.

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

(cheryl with the c)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_enkl4jCzMM

one of my cell group friends shared this video with the cell. as i begin to watch it, i started to cry. i realized that the devil's plans were so evident in this world. 

there's always a question that i ask God, why does evil seem to overpower the good? 

as you begin to watch this video, its about how the devil use busyness and the lack of love to create chaos in peoples' lives.

i've told someone before, that i may quit rotaract club and lose my position if i find myself losing my interaction time with God. people may argue that, why? aren't your cca points more important for your university admission? 

in the past, i used to always think about getting a high GPA and great CCA leadership position. but chasing after all those worldly status and recognition made me feel immensely tired. i asked myself, "so what if i attain these? why am i trying to gain my self-worth through these?" 

i'm not saying don't do well in your studies, don't do well in your CCA. yes, do well in them but don't put your focus on them because it will only make you very exasperated.

reflect through this word, BUSY.

B - eing

U- nder

S - atan's

Y - oke

i don't want to meet God and hear Him say, "you've been busy, you've been under the devil's yoke." but instead, i want to hear Him say, "well done, my good and faithful servant."

now that sentence gives me comfort and cheer. [:

MISS SWAN [:

hey!! you guys have any time to relax before the examinations. watch miss swan!! (: it makes me LAUGHHHH. 

this is my favourite! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xZ9lb319uZQ (miss swan at the candy shop)

watch the miss swan at atm as well! HAHAHA!! do..doo..dooo..GOO!!

watch the miss swan at customs!! HAHAHAHA!! HOKEY POKEY DANCE! :D

OH YESS!! WATCH THE ONE WHERE MISS SWAN is at the airplane :D

OH!! THE MOVIE THEATRE ONE! HAHAHAHA. oh my goodness watch all of them (:

HE LOOKING LIKE A MAN!

OKAY, ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS!

THANKS TO YOU! :D