i love my sc friends

HAHAHAHA. oh my goodness. firstly, i want to thank my bangala for being so concern about my previous post! but seriously, im kinda tight lipped about my family issues unless its absolutely necessary to tell. (necessary means im suffering from a mild breakdown and it requires me to tell someone. if i dont, i will probably go insane and depressed.) BANGALA! i love you honey. (: we're always talking about our infatuations and how it will NEVER work out. apparently, we aint guys' type. HAHAHA. but whateverrr. as long as i have my God and my friends to be with me forever. [:

secondly, i love yvonne and zhiying. oh my goodness. they made my day today with a hilarious msn conversation. (: yvonne and i want to play tennis tomorrow and then zhiying said she doesn't exercise outside because she doesn't see the point of doing so. she can run at home, how? she runs on the spot. HAHAHAA. its amazing how zhiying is so skinny without exercising.

lastly, i want to thank God for being there for me. yesterday, i cried while i was bathing. the emotional pain was unbearable and i broke down. i felt so tired with everything. i was thinking about why God wanted me to suffer through so many situations, wondering where God is right now. are my tears worth anything in God's eyes? after i finish bathing, i got back my strength and pulled out the bible and recorded down verses where suffering of Christians is for the will of God. But Jesus Christ will perfect, establish, strengthen and settle me after my sufferings. (: initially while i was crying, i wondered how i did not have to live on bread alone but on God's word. But i surprised myself by doing so. AMEN. 

CEREAL WILL ALWAYS BE STRONG, RIGHT BANGALA? don't worry. i wont be sad for long. i will always get back my energy and strength to be that lame and happy cereal girl. HAHA.

argh. hmm.. har? HA!

This week has been one of the most frustrating weeks for me. I’ve went through a series of emotions. From feeling angry to sad to anxious to happy then back to angry. The silent cries and pleas during my prayers made me feel small in God’s eyes. I’ve been thinking, maybe he doesn’t care about my prayers or is it because I’ve done something wrong? Nope, no replies.

But a week later, the answers started to come in gradually. The answers were not what I want to hear but this situation will let me increase in my faith and trust in God.

Actually, this month is a crucial month for me; as my water baptism is coming up. Suddenly, this series of events struck me with disappointment and anger. But I've decided to run in this race with endurance, looking unto my Saviour, the author and finisher of faith.

After all, “faith is a substance of things hoped for, evidence of things not seen.” (heb 11:1)

 

Salvation is here

God above all the world in motion,

God above all my hopes and fears,

Well I don't care what the world throws at me now,

It's gonna be alright! 

Cause I know my God saved the day,

And I know His word never fails,

And I know my God made a way for me,

Salvation is here.

 

How can I keep from singing Your praise?

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And I fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels

And the saints around the throne 

P.S: when i started writing this post, it was raining heavily and the thunders were literally making me jump up from my seat. After i finished, the rain settled for a drizzle. [: 

HUAT AH!

woo!! ive decided to revive this blog of mine. cheezelmomeezel! (:

oh gosh. im so tired. i had a no school today so i woke up at twelve-ish and rushed to ntuc finest to get some baking materials. i baked white chocolate cookies and chunky chocolate muffins. (: (p.s: ive reserved some cookies for huishan, yeeling and limin)

im super proud of myself! ive finally found my passion. (: bakinggg and maybe the piano. i remember brandon asking what my passion was, and i had no idea? ): i felt disappointed with myself, i'm nearing eighteen and i dont have a passion (besides my passion for God and His kingdom) ha! im still trying to learn the guitar and piano. i will find my musical talent someday.

hopefully, when i have cell on deepavali, i will bake chocolate mallow pie (chocolate pie with melted marshmallows cream) for them. hurr hurr.

oh my goodness, halloween is nearing! ntuc is finally selling reese peanut butter cups (no. 2 favourite chocolate) my favourite chocolate is kinder bueno (: lovess. 

ahhh, i miss zhiying, xinyan and yvonne so badly. i saw huifang (hweefang), jazreel, janet, shuying and angela during the scgs open house. oh gosh. there were so many fond memories. HAHAHA. all of us couldnt stop laughing when jazreel and i recalled that xinyan farted during the amath remedial while she was trying to get up to go to the toilet. OH MY GOODNESS.. XINYAN IS THE FUNNIEST SHITTE EVER. (: love you, girl. 

i really miss the sc memories and the sc spirit that all of us have inside of us. the ncos 08-09 did a great show for open house (: the part bs-going part cs did a great presentation with the rifles. they surprised me when they were able to handle the rifles well and stamp as one. (: i cant wait for annual camp 09. WOO!!

woo! im going for my water baptism soon. wish me luckk. 

cheezelmomeezel. God bless you all (: