Love is a word that is often misused by people. There are many interpretations for this word. Recently, I had a dream regarding this topic on love. Yes, I agree that it feels good to be loved. But I feel that love with the opposite gender will make you feel euphoric one moment and the next moment, you’re deep in the pits. I consider that it’s a similar case as a person who has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Ughhh.
My friends who are attached always encourage me to never get attach. I feel that it’s quite hilarious whenever they tell me that, since it is quite ironic. Anyways, I managed to convince myself that I will never be able to find a partner. I will probably bore the person to death. Plus, being together with someone requires a person to change. People who are usually merry and cheerful will have a frown plastered on their face whenever they’re in a dilemma of falling in love.
There’s another kind of love I’ve discovered, the love to give without expecting any returns. During this semester holidays, I’ve been quite free. Usually whenever I have the long term breaks, I would work part-time jobs so that my mom will be pleased. But this time, I got fired hence I went to do community service to fill the free slots in my schedule. On Mondays, I will go to the Institute of Mental Health to help the patients in their art and craft. This coming Thursday, I will help helping the kindergarten kids. I find this type of love more meaningful than the first.
Last but not least, there is a love that I long to be taken deeper. But yet, I find that there is no longer the desire and passion to chase after Him (my God, my Saviour). I know I’ve disappointed God many times. But yet, He still remembers that I’m His daughter, that I’m still a child of God. I yearn to repay His love…but yet in my heart, the zeal is no longer there.
Cheezelmomeezel,
Cereal Thiang
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
My Amazing September
September 2009 is simply the best months of the year (: I can name 6reasons why!
Firstly, it is the month where I can finally remove my braces!!! AAAAAAHHHH!!!
Secondly, it is the month where I went on my first overseas trip, taking zee airplane, after more than 12 years!
Thirdly, I had an amazing time at Bangkok with the FACEB clique.
Fourthly, God has blessed me with a job at Miss Clarity Café.
Fifthly, I will be getting my Foochow Association Award.
Sixthly, I got my results back, which has been blessed by God. GPA = 4.0, 4As with Distinctions. Just when I thought I would do badly for this semester because I had study the bare minimum for each of the examination paper as well as I was extremely distracted with the preparations for the Bangkok trip, but God has amazed me with His power (:
Principles of Marketing (PMKT) examination paper was the worst paper I have ever had. I had spent 1 hour on the first PMKT question as the invigilator had made many noises and movements and caused me distracted. I wanted to cry because I simply had no time for the rest of my other 3 questions. I hyperventilated during the paper because I was so nervous and scared that I will do badly. After the paper, I teared at home but I surrendered the paper to God. During my periods of anxiety, God had told me in Psalms 121: 1-2 “I look up to the mountains – does my help come from there? My help comes from the Lord who made Heavens and the earth.” I got an A for that paper (:
Business Communications 2, there was no examination paper for this subject but during the first table topic test, I was so nervous, I couldn’t think straight. The following week for my second table topic test, God had reminded me of my most favourite verse. Isaiah 41:10 “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” With such great encouragement from God, I was able to stand in front of the class and deliver my speech with confidence. However, I never expect myself to get an A, lest an AD. (:
For French, I seriously thought I would fail this subject because I felt that I couldn’t enunciate any of the foreign language words. I battled with the difficulty of writing French as well. But God had surprised me with an AD.
When I went back to my TAWG on 21st August 2009, I read what I wrote. God spoke to me on the bus after my Finance International Trade paper. I had just finished my first examination paper and God told me that even before I ask God for help, He already knows I need help. Even if I don’t request for His help, He will help me no matter what. Matt 7:9-11 “You parents – if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask Him.” An effective prayer is having a childlike faith to believe God hears your prayer and trusting that He will help you simply because He wants the best for you.
But through it all, after receiving my results and feeling elated, God reminded me that I have to work equally hard to get into the Kingdom of God. Results, achievements and awards do not matter at the end of the day. Ultimately, I’m still running the race for God. Spending the rest of my days in the courts of God is my main goal. (: Everything that I achieve on earth is nothing compared to the days where I enter Heaven and spend the rest of my life with God.
Cheezeelmomeezel,
Cereeeeal loves Christ!
Firstly, it is the month where I can finally remove my braces!!! AAAAAAHHHH!!!
Secondly, it is the month where I went on my first overseas trip, taking zee airplane, after more than 12 years!
Thirdly, I had an amazing time at Bangkok with the FACEB clique.
Fourthly, God has blessed me with a job at Miss Clarity Café.
Fifthly, I will be getting my Foochow Association Award.
Sixthly, I got my results back, which has been blessed by God. GPA = 4.0, 4As with Distinctions. Just when I thought I would do badly for this semester because I had study the bare minimum for each of the examination paper as well as I was extremely distracted with the preparations for the Bangkok trip, but God has amazed me with His power (:
Principles of Marketing (PMKT) examination paper was the worst paper I have ever had. I had spent 1 hour on the first PMKT question as the invigilator had made many noises and movements and caused me distracted. I wanted to cry because I simply had no time for the rest of my other 3 questions. I hyperventilated during the paper because I was so nervous and scared that I will do badly. After the paper, I teared at home but I surrendered the paper to God. During my periods of anxiety, God had told me in Psalms 121: 1-2 “I look up to the mountains – does my help come from there? My help comes from the Lord who made Heavens and the earth.” I got an A for that paper (:
Business Communications 2, there was no examination paper for this subject but during the first table topic test, I was so nervous, I couldn’t think straight. The following week for my second table topic test, God had reminded me of my most favourite verse. Isaiah 41:10 “Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” With such great encouragement from God, I was able to stand in front of the class and deliver my speech with confidence. However, I never expect myself to get an A, lest an AD. (:
For French, I seriously thought I would fail this subject because I felt that I couldn’t enunciate any of the foreign language words. I battled with the difficulty of writing French as well. But God had surprised me with an AD.
When I went back to my TAWG on 21st August 2009, I read what I wrote. God spoke to me on the bus after my Finance International Trade paper. I had just finished my first examination paper and God told me that even before I ask God for help, He already knows I need help. Even if I don’t request for His help, He will help me no matter what. Matt 7:9-11 “You parents – if your children ask for a loaf of bread, do you give them a stone instead? Or if they ask for a fish, do you give them a snake? Of course not! So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask Him.” An effective prayer is having a childlike faith to believe God hears your prayer and trusting that He will help you simply because He wants the best for you.
But through it all, after receiving my results and feeling elated, God reminded me that I have to work equally hard to get into the Kingdom of God. Results, achievements and awards do not matter at the end of the day. Ultimately, I’m still running the race for God. Spending the rest of my days in the courts of God is my main goal. (: Everything that I achieve on earth is nothing compared to the days where I enter Heaven and spend the rest of my life with God.
Cheezeelmomeezel,
Cereeeeal loves Christ!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Faithful and Fellowship
Hello,
These few days, God has been teaching me about remaining faithful and remaining in fellowship with God. Yes, it is easy to get salvation because Jesus has already done the work for us. But it is ultimately up to us to maintain it.
It is sad when you see believers who think they love God based on their weekly church attendance.
Just like how a pen ink fades away in a book after a long while, will our names fade away from the Book of Life if we do not maintain a close relationship with God?
1 John 2: 24, 25, 28
“So you must remain faithful to what you have been taught from the beginning. If you do, you will remain in fellowship with the Son and with the Father. And in this fellowship, we enjoy the eternal life He promised us.”
“…Remain in fellowship with Christ so that when He returns, you will be full of courage and not shrink back in shame.”
It is also sad to know that there are some believers who suddenly leave church because they feel tired or burnt out. When we are tired, isn’t God our only source of strength?
Why do we leave church, thinking that it’s time to take a break or we will get recharge after a break from church?
Once you fall, ask God for His hand. Don’t pick yourself up on your own.
These few days, God has been teaching me about remaining faithful and remaining in fellowship with God. Yes, it is easy to get salvation because Jesus has already done the work for us. But it is ultimately up to us to maintain it.
It is sad when you see believers who think they love God based on their weekly church attendance.
Just like how a pen ink fades away in a book after a long while, will our names fade away from the Book of Life if we do not maintain a close relationship with God?
1 John 2: 24, 25, 28
“So you must remain faithful to what you have been taught from the beginning. If you do, you will remain in fellowship with the Son and with the Father. And in this fellowship, we enjoy the eternal life He promised us.”
“…Remain in fellowship with Christ so that when He returns, you will be full of courage and not shrink back in shame.”
It is also sad to know that there are some believers who suddenly leave church because they feel tired or burnt out. When we are tired, isn’t God our only source of strength?
Why do we leave church, thinking that it’s time to take a break or we will get recharge after a break from church?
Once you fall, ask God for His hand. Don’t pick yourself up on your own.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Roller Coaster
Last week was an amazing week for me, because I WENT TO BANGKOK!!! It was my first time sitting in the airplane after more than 10 years. I’ve always had the fear of taking aeroplanes, because, when I was young, I took an airplane to Indonesia with my family and my ears were so pain that I ran to the door and wanted to open the door to get out.
The airplane flights were really scary!!! But Amelia, Brandon, Edwin and Chuan Fa were really good people to travel with (:
Amelia gave me a lot of fashion advice as well as helped me to bargain because I always end up getting bullied by the shop owners. -.-
Through this Bangkok experience, I realized many good qualities of these 3 guys .(I doubt I would personally say these to them, otherwise, they will get big heads) They were patient, gentlemanly, respectful and… All in all, they are the type of guys that cannot be found in this world.
After I came back from Bangkok, I had a big major shocking news because I did something wrong in my CCA activity and it had caused a big chaos. Sigh. God will help me solve the problem.
The next day after I came back from Bangkok, I started my first day of work. It was fun and not to mention, the food Miss Clarity Café serves is really delicious! (or rather, smells delicious) I also found out that God had blessed me with this job. On the day that I applied for this job, it was the same day that the counter staff had tendered her resignation due to school attachment. If I had applied a day earlier or later, I wouldn’t have gotten the job.
The next thing I need to do is to get bands for the FACEB Bangkok friends (:
FACEB. (FA.AME.CHER.EDWI.BRANDO)
Cheezelmomeezel,
Cheryl Thiang
The airplane flights were really scary!!! But Amelia, Brandon, Edwin and Chuan Fa were really good people to travel with (:
Amelia gave me a lot of fashion advice as well as helped me to bargain because I always end up getting bullied by the shop owners. -.-
Through this Bangkok experience, I realized many good qualities of these 3 guys .(I doubt I would personally say these to them, otherwise, they will get big heads) They were patient, gentlemanly, respectful and… All in all, they are the type of guys that cannot be found in this world.
After I came back from Bangkok, I had a big major shocking news because I did something wrong in my CCA activity and it had caused a big chaos. Sigh. God will help me solve the problem.
The next day after I came back from Bangkok, I started my first day of work. It was fun and not to mention, the food Miss Clarity Café serves is really delicious! (or rather, smells delicious) I also found out that God had blessed me with this job. On the day that I applied for this job, it was the same day that the counter staff had tendered her resignation due to school attachment. If I had applied a day earlier or later, I wouldn’t have gotten the job.
The next thing I need to do is to get bands for the FACEB Bangkok friends (:
FACEB. (FA.AME.CHER.EDWI.BRANDO)
Cheezelmomeezel,
Cheryl Thiang
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