sad yet still trusting

today, as i was going to do my module enrolment. in the morning (during games day) i was depressed because i thought i could not be in the same class as my clique because they chose FIT (financial international trade) and i chose IEF (international economic and finance) last time. 

but another of my friend told me that the previous selections of IEF and FIT did not matter and now we can reselect again. i was filled with joy. hence i decided that i would forgo my passion, which is economics, and go ahead to join my clique. 

to my dismay, when it was time to enrol into the classes, my computer jammed. i could not get into the class (TB09) my clique was intending to go. everyone of them got in except for me. as it was still jamming for 10 mins, i was tearing and shouting, "God God why did you let this happen to me!" 

TB09 (FIT class) was filled and i just chose TB01 (IEF class). my friend, taby, told me, maybe God wants you to get out of your comfort zone. and i thought, okay, maybe she's right. 

i burst into tears when i finally realized that i could not be in the same class as my clique. i was going to be all alone. 

but God reminded me of Jeremiah 29:11 i believe God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me. it is going to be difficult to go through the next semester all by myself. but im going to trust in God's plans. 

Romans 8:28, i love God, i believe everything He has done is good.

hallelujah, Jesus. 

my exam results [:

the first sentence: ALL GLORY TO GOD. 

Thanks be to God, who always causes me to triumph and overcome (:

the day before yesterday, i was praying fervently for my results. God's peace was poured unto me. i felt calm and knowing that i would do well. it wasn't the confidence of my own abilities, for God said take no confidence from the flesh.

in the modules where i scored distinctions, BMGT and MAEC, they were hardly the modules i expected an A grade. 

in BMGT module, i didnt attend the lectures nor did i pay attention during the tutorials. (i tried, but it was too boring) plus, i only had 4 hours to study for the BMGT paper. i was so scared because i did not want to get below a B grade. i cried out to God to help me and i went to bed after studying. i believed that God will enable me to do well. during the paper itself, i could really sense that it was not by my strength that enabled me to do this paper but it was by the Holy Spirit that was teaching and guiding me.

God has heard and answered my desperate cries. (:

in MAEC module, the paper was incredibly difficult, it was the most difficult paper set in the past 3 years. and i thought, "oh great. there goes my A grade." but i prayed to God and submitted all my worries to God. i never expected an AD, but God knew how much i loved economics and i believe He blessed me. 

in DSS module, i didn't understand anything at all. i did not do my tutorials, i had attempt, but i didn't know how to do any of them. a few days before the project submission, i suddenly understood the concepts. and a day before the project submission, my group realized that we did not do 60% of the project and we had to rush through it. and amazingly, my teacher praised my group, telling us "your project is one of the best in the cohort." thanks to God. (: we also had a major exam on a monday. the day before (which is sunday) was the day for the preparation of exam. initially i didn't want to go for the first SP class, but i chose to because this verse struck me hard. "keep the Sabbath day holy. don't pursue your own interests on that day..." (isa 58:13) i was thinking, oh crap, fine. i will go for the SP class then come back to study for the exam. 

but God did bless me, because suddenly, i knew how to do all the tutorials. even the challenging ones. it really amazed me how God had changed an IT idiot into an IT genius on that day of the exam. 

initially, i was setting my expectations for my grades.

MAEC: A, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: B+, LMS: C, IAC: A, DSS: B. 

GPA: 3.58

as i was looking at it, i was like.. aiyo, seems so impossible. tsk. 

but what i got for the results.

MAEC: AD, BLAW: A, POA: A, BMGT: AD, LMS: C+, IAC: A, DSS: A.

GPA: 3.875

my God is a God of possibilities. there's nothing impossible for Him. He has given more than what i had expected.

could i have done it myself?

i think not.

cheezelmomeezel,

cereal

(cheryl with the c)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_enkl4jCzMM

one of my cell group friends shared this video with the cell. as i begin to watch it, i started to cry. i realized that the devil's plans were so evident in this world. 

there's always a question that i ask God, why does evil seem to overpower the good? 

as you begin to watch this video, its about how the devil use busyness and the lack of love to create chaos in peoples' lives.

i've told someone before, that i may quit rotaract club and lose my position if i find myself losing my interaction time with God. people may argue that, why? aren't your cca points more important for your university admission? 

in the past, i used to always think about getting a high GPA and great CCA leadership position. but chasing after all those worldly status and recognition made me feel immensely tired. i asked myself, "so what if i attain these? why am i trying to gain my self-worth through these?" 

i'm not saying don't do well in your studies, don't do well in your CCA. yes, do well in them but don't put your focus on them because it will only make you very exasperated.

reflect through this word, BUSY.

B - eing

U- nder

S - atan's

Y - oke

i don't want to meet God and hear Him say, "you've been busy, you've been under the devil's yoke." but instead, i want to hear Him say, "well done, my good and faithful servant."

now that sentence gives me comfort and cheer. [: